祝我一路顺风
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Flying back this Sunday and mayu haven't start packing at all yet!!!! (though all omiyage has been prepared)
Just thinking about the flight has already tired mayu out... orz
basically the plan is:
20th Dec (Sunday)
6am: wake up, possibly bath, eat breakfast that mayu would buy on Friday night since breakfasts in dorm on sundays starts from 8am.
6.45: Take cab to the bus stop (have to call cab the night befre) to take the bus to Chitose Airport. The busstop is about 25 minutes walk from the dorm, but mayu has no plan of walking in the snow/cold/dark lugging her luggage bag all the way to the the bus stop.
7.15: bus should arrive around this time, but knowing the area, it would most likely come 10 minutes late
9 plus: reach Chitose Airport. Since sonia's flight to tokyo is at 11, will be seeing her off first before waiting to check in myself.
11.30: check in, because flight is at 1pm. (whcih means i'll prob need to get a bento or something to eat before gettng onto the flight)
1.30: flight takes off from hokkaido to shanghai
4 plus : arrive in Shanghai. go through immigration customs, leave arrival hall, get into departure hall, go through immigration customs again. Will have to get water and also look for something edible that will last me to 11 plus. Will prob be playing with my lappie for 5 hours plus. And pray no stupid problems here.
11 plus: flight takes off from shanghai.
21 dec (monday)
5am plus: Finally touch down Singapore.
6 or 7 am: Possibly playing with Bobby or Wii Fit. XD
And so to my utter shock, i discovered that i will not be able to bath for a while 24 hours!!!! orz
Forunately, it's winter.
*sigh*
I want to go home, but the journey is gonna kill mayu..... esp the wait at Shanghai.
一人之旅是很寂寞的。
01.
一句一路顺风，结果mayu在youtube上找了吴奇隆的「祝你一路顺风」，然后听
着听着，就找到了他和赵薇一起演的「侠女闯天关」。
一副书生装扮背后其实是个冷血杀手，一个男扮女装不男不女的小燕子，配在一起很可爱，而
且还多出一个翘宫二皇子，江湖，武林，宫廷，够mayu高兴的了。
吴奇隆，你为什么这么的帅阿啊啊啊啊？？（在mayu进入Gackt的世界之前，这台
湾霹雳虎可是mayu的本命啊。第一个买的录音带专辑其实是他的。）
然后，不管是萧十一郎还是水若寒，都让mayu看得要流口水。
搞笑的剧情也让mayu要喷饭了。。。。 小龙小幅，拜托你们不要再救水若寒了，什么死马当活马医，人家本来好好地都要被你们医
死了。。。orz
总共30集，现在在youtube上看到第7集。回家之前不知道看得完吗？
不过嘛，剧情倒是漏洞百出，很多细节没有交代清楚，然后几乎所有人除了二皇子朱玉龙，都
又笨又瞎看得我都要吐血了。不过基本上不要去想的太深入就好了，看戏嘛~
02.
currently working on this pic now.It is not done yet obviously because this guy has no eyes yet. and the background is not complete.
But no matter what pics i draw, i always feel that they lack something. the lack of cuteness, or the lack of coolness?
Maybe it's just the style?
*sigh*
Just what is it that i lack?
It's basically the same as my maya works, i can confidently self-proclaim that i made the second best room in my class, but i'm only second best. Why? Because my room lacks something, which i think is something akin to warmth and humanity. When i compare my room to a few classmates's, i feel like dumping mine and going into some other rooms, because they look livable. They have warmth and humanity in their rooms.
Maybe our rooms are a mirror of what we are inside.
My room is cold and blue, with the walls blue,the lights blue with only a few beams of warmed orange lights. The room has some ornaments, vases, deco plates, dvds, stuff like that, but nothing homely, thus earning the comment that it looks like a hotel or a bar. The most significant thing in it is the huge window that covers an entire wall and it stares out into a cold open city.
The maya genius's room is warm, enclosed with shelves and cupboards. Main colors are warm yellow and orange lights, white and warm brown wallpapers. It has many homely stuff- plates, utensils, a kitchen, photos of puppies and dogs. It has no windows to the outside world.
So what is it that i lack? I know there is something but i have no idea what it is and the frustration is killing mayu.
maybe i'm just getting anxious because the teachers keep asking us to start preparing our port folios and mayu has nothing much to put in. I mean, i have lots of pics on my webbie, but none seem really good enough. Moreover, the majority are fanart, do they actually count as works suitable for port folios?
and another question that has been bugging mayu.
Do i really want to work in Japan? Can i actually get a job here that requires my skills. And what exactly are my skills here?
As long as i lack that one thing which i cannot even pin point, i don't think i can ever be my best.
maybe i'm comparing myself to the best guy in class, but when i look at his modeling skills i just want to hide back into my little cave.
sigh..... this is probably some sort of anxiety disorder from the excitement and anxiety over flying home this weekend.
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